Day in; day out
November 25, 2009
Yesterday I spent my sunshine like so many brilliant quarters
Dropping it loudly and smiling on all that happy splashing around
On all those friendly, charming strangers
On that one pretty girl that was happy just to talk awhile
Paying at every corner for those warm, anonymous smiles
And then just lying there, beaming and drumming my fingers on the sand
Feeling that carefree bliss of reckless abandon
As all that beautiful, yellow sunshine burned a hole right through my pocket
And now I wake up in the gray, stinging wreckage
Bland beaches and brown, dried out old trees cluttered about like crushed cans
Those people that I don't want to say Hello to
Strewn carelessly around just like broken bottles
And that girl getting on her bus that I won't say Goodbye to
And these jittering knots in my chest when she glances my way
All I feel is this relentless wanting - no needing - just a little more
A splash, a taste
A drop, you know, to get me through
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